I have two great passions in live, Human rights and acting. I love to act, I love to pretend to be someone I'm not and express the feelings those people have. The best parts to play are parts that are so far away from the person I’m. But I would never go after that passion, for a lot of reasons… the main reason is the uncertainty. Because I don’t want to spend my life chasing after a dream, I want to spend my life living a dream. So I’m instead going after my other passion, working for Human rights in the world. My hope is to work for the UN, but it’s a hard place to get in to. I will figure life out year by year, and right now I’m happy… and really that’s all that matters.

Peace

Tom Dice - Me and my guitar

People always say
Tom, this has gone too far
But I'm not afraid to chase my dreams
Just me and my guitar

♥

And no one may ever know
The feelings inside my mind'
Cause all of the lines I ever write
Are running out of time

♥

So maybe I should get a nine to five
But I don't want to let it go, there's so much more to life

♥

Tell me that I've got it wrong
Tell me everything will be okay
Before I fall
Tell me they'll play my songs
Tell me they'll sing the words I say
When darkness falls
All of the stars will see
Just me and my guitar

♥

I'm sure that I'll find my way'
Cause I'm not afraid to try
Even a world of love and hope can't guarantee that price

♥

So maybe I should get a nine to five
But I don't want to let it go, there's so much more to life
Tell me that I've got it wrong
Tell me everything will be okay
Before I fall
Tell me they'll play my songs
Tell me they'll sing the words I say
When darkness falls
All of the stars will see
Just me and my guitar
Me and my guitar...

The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.

Elbert Hubbard

The best day of my life was when I got a private tour of the UN. It was also the day when I realised that my dream might be more then a dream. I can get a job at UN if I work for it. If I just believe in myself.

"I'm sure that I'll find my way, Cause I'm not afraid to try"

"You never find yourself until you face the truth." ~ Pearl Bailey

I don’t know when to shut up. I just don’t know when to stop. My friend once told me that I someday will piss off the wrong person and most likely end up dead. Well… I do care for my life so I would never take it that far… but I take it far enough. And sometimes I just get to mad, and mad at really silly things. Because people think it such a big deal that Sweden didn’t go to final in the Eurovision, and it’s all Christer Björkmans fault. But I remember that it was the Swedish people that voted for her in the first place.

Reading Human Rights is not always easy, I have lost faith in humankind while talking about Rwanda, war, death, UN that failed… And I follow a site called Human Right Watch that update news everyday about all the horrible problems in the world. And people care more about Eurovision then people getting tortured, raped and killed… I just don’t get it.

And I’m not saying that you have to think about it everyday… but some days I just get more mad and more upset over the lack of caring.

One world, one world, one world.

Peace

I don’t know what’s wrong with me today. I just don’t feel good. I think it was after watching Special Victim unit. That show always mess with my feelings, just like Criminal Minds. Whenever it involves kids it leaves me feeling empty, and scared. And most of all mad, mad at the world, mad at pervs, mad at people who sits by and to nothing. In the future I hope I can work to make the world a better place, I hope I can help kids. I also hope that I will stop being so sensitive. Feeling like this after watching a TV-show, makes me realise that I might not be ready to work with this. Not ready to face reality just yet.

I will.

Why would you live somewhere you hated? Life's too short to settle for mediocrity.

There is just one life for each of us: our own.
—Euripides

"Hope. Sometimes that's all you have when you have nothing. Have that you'll have everything."

With my sister and best friend

I have never been alone, never. Even when I wanted to be alone, and the years I spent alone I never really was alone. Because I always had my family, and I always had friends that would be there for me if I wanted them to be. But for a few years I for some reason “wanted” to be alone. But I still remember the feeling and it’s a really bad feeling. But I always knew that people would be upset if I died and people would search for me if I went missing.


No one wants to be alone, and its breaks my heart that some people are truly alone. They don’t have a family and the friends they have might not be the best. I always hated seeing people sitting alone eating in school, and I wish I had chosen to sit beside them more. Because sometimes the most important thing is that they know someone cares.



So we should all be a little bit more understanding, and do our best to show the world that we do care.

Peace

"My hope still is to leave the world a bit better for having been here." ~ Jim Henson

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

"Don't you understand I already have a plan

I'm waiting for my real life to begin"

I don’t want to say that I’m unhappy with my life, because that would imply that I’m not grateful. But a part of me is still waiting for my real life to begin. Because it’s crazy if this is my real life. When did my life become this lonely and boring? Since when is my life a routine? I feel trapped in this, I feel like there is no way out.

Any minute now, my ship is coming in

I’ll keep checking the horizon

And I'll check my machine, there's sure to be that call

It's gonna happen soon, soon, soon

It's just that times are lean

I want to do everything I dream of. I just don’t want to talk about it. I want people to say “Hey that girl did it! She believed in her dreams and she made it happen”, and not “Hey, that Tanja girl is a dreamer, but she never make her dreams happen”.

When I awoke today, suddenly nothing happened

But in my dreams, I slew the dragon

And down this beaten path, and up this cobbled lane

I'm walking in my old footsteps, once again

I want to be out enjoying life, live everyday like it’s the last, have fun with my friends, go out dancing, play theatre, write, take photographs and just love the things I do.

And you say, just be here now

Forget about the past, your mask is wearing thin

Let me throw one more dice

I know that I can win

I guess I’m just in a bad place right now. And I will get out of it. Like I always do, and do all of those things, because that’s the person I am. I survive, I fight and I’m going to make it all happen. Watch me.

Peace

Don't judge those who try and fail. Judge only those who fail to try

It’s still okay for me to dream, because I’m only 20. People find it cute that I have big dreams, and big goals. But still it’s because I’m 20. It’s still okay for me to think that I can win a Oscar or be the general secretary of the UN, I can still think I can save the world and do amazing things. Because I’m only 20. But time is running out, and its time for me to wake up and live in the real world and to stop dreaming.

It comes a time when it’s not okay to dream big dreams, when it’s not cute anymore, when they start questing your dreams.

So I’m going to dream big now.

Pretend that I can be everything I want to be

And when the time comes to stop pretending

I will.

“Even though I'm just twentyI've still got some time to dream”

Peace

Just like a tattoo,just like a tattoo

"Don't wanna be like all the others
That just ain't me
Do I really wanna end up living life just like you?
All I need is time to discover
Even though I'm just twenty
I've still got some time to dream"

Love Me, Hate Me, You, Can, Never, Break Me,

The plan was me+my sister+denmark = the dance floor. But she got sick, a nasty cold. So the plan is now computer+school books = getting my essay done. Have a great friday.

Peace

Our lives are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss

"I find that’s one of the great things about acting—you have the opportunity to stand in somebody else’s shoes, whether it’s someone with mental health problems or someone who lives and works in a small town. Each character faces a dilemma in her life, and as an actor you’re able to step into that character’s skin, look through her eyes. You leave transformed, a different person, because once you live a little bit of someone’s life, it changes you" - Sally Field

"If we did all the things we are capable of, we would literally astound ourselves"

I need to fix this. Before its to late.

bad things happens but it's how you deal with them that counts

No one said this life was going to be a easy ride, for some its more hard then others. I don’t like complaining because I know how blessed I’m. But I still complain, because sometimes you have to. When I was 16 I meet a 19 year old girl, how been sold as a sex slave. She was tricked into coming to Sweden when she was just 14. Can you imagine? 14? But she was more full of live and more forgiving then anyone I ever meet. She believed in the beauty of live, and the kindness of people, in God, in love and that everything happens for a reason.

Meeting her made me realise one thing. She had been living in hell, but she still had more faith then us spoiled Swedish kids. (I’m not saying everyone but you see my point). We complain over school, over parents, over the most stupid things. And here is this girl how has all the right to complain and she don’t. She just smiles and lives.

I wonder where she is today, how she is, if she still smiles that bright smile and if she knows that she changed my life that day. And that I’m grateful that she told me her story, and that I think of her almost everyday.

I hope she found love.

Peace

Never mind searching for who you are. Search for the person you aspire to be.

♥ ♥
All the world's a stage,

And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts;

♥ ♥

The greatest pleasure in life is in doing what people say you cannot do

"You see, most of us who start a massive weight loss journey, or any major life changing jouney for that matter, are broken, half-dead people. Whether we’d like to admit it or not. We’re lost in our lives, and we’ve been conditioned to feel like failures, too afraid to lose or even too afraid to succeed. We don’t feel like we’re worth the effort, or deserve the effort it takes to acheive what we want. Even if we are worth it our goals seem so impossible. So, how do you give a person self value? How do you teach yourself that you are strong and do deserve to get what you want?"

Daniel Wright

Dance forever, forever on the dance floor

I wanna go out dancing this weekend. Been so stressed the past weeks with school. So would be great to do something fun for once. I don't want Cougar Town to be the highlight of my week. Even if its a really great and funny show. But still. Its kinda pathetic that that what I look forward to all week.

Peace. ALMOST done with my exam. pwee.

Some people want it to happen, some wish it would happen, others make it happen

I was a cool kid once. I said whatever was on my mind. If I thought somebody was an idiot I let them know. I never cried. Never. Even when I was that kid I knew what I wanted. I have always known. And that kid would have done the things she wanted without a second reflection.

But I’m not that kid anymore. I don’t tell people they are idiots even if they really are. I cry all the time. And I’m not as brave as that kid was, and that may be a good thing. You see. Life gets harder when you grow up, and I’m pretty sure that kid would scream at me for being a coward. And it might be true.

But still, once I was a cool kid.

"Nothing great in this world has been accomplished without passion" Georg Hege

Peace

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams" Eleanor Roosevel

This. Day. Can. Go. To. Hell.
Tomorrow. Can. Go. To. Hell.
This. Week. No. Comment.
Need. To. Sleep.

Winners in life aren't the ones who never fall. Winners are the ones who fall and always stand up

Try Not, Do Or, Do Not

Learn from the great Yoda.

Peace

Try to Be like Mr. Spock, but your emotions in a box

I miss New York. I miss the person I'm in New York. I miss the feeling of total happiness and the feeling of "I belong". New York is my place, don't get me wrong. I'm blessed that I was born in Sweden. I'm blessed for everything I have just because of that. But I don't belong in Sweden. Never have, never will.

Everybody got a place in this world, and I'm blessed to already know where I belong :)

Concrete jungle where dreams are made of,
There's nothing you can’t do,
Now you're in New York!!!
These streets will make you feel brand new,
the lights will inspire you,

Peace

Please dont stop the rain. Let it fall.

"Follow your heart. Our brain always screws things up."

~ Chuck Bartowski

I miss my tan. It was a really nice tan. A lot of hours by the pool. A lot of hours at the beach. Hard work.

Today was a great day! Went with my sister and my dog to Malmö to meet up with the child I'm mentoring. I cant believe I only have 3 more weeks with her. This 9 months went by fast.

Our dog was tired on the way home.

Have to get back to my exam now. Just readning it over and over again. Want it to be good!

Peace

"Never let your memories be greater than your dreams.” – Doug Ivester

Fly. Be. Free.

I'm finally at peace with my life. I have been for a while. And the best feeling is just to be happy for no special reason. Like today. Have a exam I'm doing and been working on it for hours. But I'm still happy. My sister have friends over and when I they laughs I laugh along with them. Just because life is good right now. We all need to find that peace in our life that makes it worth living. And understand that we have to first live for yourself then others.

"First keep the peace within yourself, then you can also bring peace to others."
Thomas Kempis

Peace

make a wish say a pray don't be scared to dream

If you wanna be somebody

If you wanna go somewhere

You better wake up and pay attention

If we crawl, Till we can walk again, Then we'll run, Until we're strong enough to jump, Then we'll fly, Until there is no end

7 weeks from now. I'm on the plan ready to leave Sweden and go back home♥

This summer is going to be the best ever.

Peace

Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel

When I spent the summer in New York 2008 a lot of things changed for me. I came back to Sweden a different person. For once I found faith in New York, as silly and stupid as it sounds.. I found God. And ever since I did it has been easier to breath, to handle success and to handle pain. What I also found was my place. My home.

I'm truly blessed that I was born in a great country. And I will always treasure Sweden. Sweden is just not my home. It might be where I come from, but its not where I belong. And I might not end up in New York ... and that will be okay. But I have a hard time seeing myself stay in Sweden.

Peace.