"You just have to do your own thing, no matter what anyone says. It's your life.”

I can’t blog when I’m happy; because I’m to busy being happy. So that’s it for now. I’m in a really good place right now; I love school; I love that I have meet new amazing friends; I love that in January I’m packing my bags and moving. I love that I’m writing this book that people really like! I love that I spent a Sunday just talking 7 hours to a friend. I love that it takes me 40 minutes to go to school. I love that I talk to my mom and sister everyday. I love that I’m taking my cousins to the movie on Friday. I love the people in my acting class; and that we are making the play Bang Bang your dead. I love that I have lost weight since I got home. I love living in Lund with my dad. I love being in school almost everyday. I love that I’m the person I’m suppose to be; loud, happy, passionate, and dramatic; and it’s okay.

Maybe we are all just the same

Whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness and equality
Instead of spreading love, we're spreading anomosity
Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity'

Every time I've done something that doesn't feel right, it's ended up not being right. ~Mario Cuom

Todays acting class was just .. amazing!!! What a group of people we are. And I made a choice today, and it was for me. For me.

“Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.”

Instead of worrying about what people say of you, why not spend time trying to accomplish something they will admire.

"Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.”

Today I went to my uncles wedding and I loved it. I’m so happy for him and a bit happy for me too because it was my first wedding EVER. My dad just left for Thailand and I have my sister here, we are eating candy and watching a movie. I’m not really watching the movie I’m more focused on the actors, and watching them. The course I’m taking now is making me second guessing myself. Because everybody else is so creative and so good; and I’m just me. Nothing to special I don’t really have any real talent. We did a thing where we had to stand in front of the whole class and pretend we were taking a shower, and then the teacher told us what was happening; like the water was getting hotter and colder, or ice-cream was coming out. And I was really bad at this and I got so mad at myself! So when the class ended I went out and bought myself 2 notebooks so I can start to study people. (And of course I had to by the really nice notebooks that were really expensive, but its just fun to write in nice notebooks)

So now I’m watching people more careful how they are interacting with people, how people that are in love look, how mad peoples face expressions are. And it’s interesting, and I really hope it will improve my acting. Because after that lesson I was ready to give up walk out of that door and tell the teacher that I won’t do it anymore. That means giving up, and I don’t want to do that, I want to improve.

I shall write more later: movie now with my sister.

Peace, love and not giving up

Happiness is a perfume you cannot pour on others without getting a few drops on yourself.

I’m really happy right now, and to be honest with you I think it’s because I live in Lund now and I’m close to everything. It takes me 40 minutes to get to school!!!! Today I had a late class and after I was just walking around in Lund and I realised that I don’t have to worry about getting home. Lund is home now. Had a great lunch date today to, so fun! I love people that you just can talk too! School is a lot of fun as well, reading double courses were a good choice because there are so many cool people! And acting classes, we can’t forget the acting classes. Living with dad is good, even if I miss my sister and mom a lot (yeah I know I’m a geek).

The weeks are going by fast, and Mondays and Tuesdays I have dance and I have drama on Wednesdays, I hang out with friends, I read again. I’m alive. I’m alive. I’m going to focus on school, family, friends and myself this fall. I’m going to focus on feeling good and working out. And then we have to see what happened in January… its looks like I will pack my bags and go away for a while. Just 6 months, I’m not ready to start a program. It scares me. But you never know with me. Never.

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it. - Groucho Marx

Peace, love and being happy!

Happy

I'm still alive. Will write more later. Bed now. Have to take the dog out in the morning and then I have a lunch date with a cool girl.

Peace out people!